From ‘When I Was Your Man’ to Self-Compassion- The Journey of Buying Flowers for Myself

by liuqiyue

When I was your man, I could buy myself flowers. They were simple, yet they held a profound significance. They were a symbol of my independence, a testament to my ability to take care of myself. In those days, life was simple, and I believed that love was about giving and receiving equally. I thought that if I could take care of myself, I could also take care of you.

But as time passed, the dynamics of our relationship changed. The flowers started to lose their luster, and the independence I once cherished began to feel like a burden. I realized that love is not just about taking care of oneself, but also about being there for the other person, even when it means sacrificing some of your own comfort.

One day, I found myself standing in a crowded flower shop, overwhelmed by the choices. I had lost touch with the simplicity of my past, and the flowers seemed to mock me with their array of colors and varieties. I wandered through the aisles, searching for something that would remind me of who I used to be. Finally, I settled on a single rose, its petals slightly bruised but still vibrant. It was a reminder of the love I once knew, and the love I hoped to find again.

As I walked out of the flower shop, I couldn’t help but think about the times when I was your man. I remembered the laughter, the shared dreams, and the moments of pure joy. I realized that the independence I once valued was not a reflection of my strength, but rather a reflection of my fear. I was afraid to be vulnerable, afraid to let you in, and afraid to let go of the control I thought I had.

Now, as I stand here, holding a single rose, I realize that love is not about buying flowers for oneself. It’s about being there for the other person, even when it means letting go of some of your own independence. It’s about being vulnerable, about trusting, and about giving without expecting anything in return. And as I look at the rose in my hand, I promise myself that I will never take love for granted again.

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